Been so long!!!

Boy oh boy it has been a long time since I wrote last...





Well, school is well under way, we finish with our 1st trimester in a week, so, i am officially 1/3 done with junior year! YAY! And with that, I have begun my college search. Not too much, but, I just don't want to put it off and be stressed out later.





Anyways, things here in MI have gotten easier...still not a huge fan, but, I am learning to like it. I have gotten invloved with Young Life and Campaigners out here and met a few people. While I try to keep an open mind, not too many people could ever measure up to the incredible friends I have back in NY. But, like, I said, I am trying to keep an open mind.





This move has been a real stretching time for me. I have been streched socially, metnally, emotionally and spiritually. And if growing in my faith and love of Jesus was the only reason I moved, then I am thankful for the move. But, more and more, I am seeing why God brought us here. Plainly put, our work in NY was done. and, while I didnt want it to be done, it was and let me tell you, GOd's timing is better than my own. And it was time for us to move on to a new mission feild.





Besides learning that God's timing is the best, I have also learned so much about his faithfulness. Even those days where I didn't think I could make it thru the nite, God was there. ANd sometimes, when I thought a friend would never come my way...someone would shoot me a smile in the hall or at Cubbies, of all places.


Most of you know that i am practically addicted to little kids. i just love them. So, when we moved here, I immediately wanted to get involved with AWANA helping with Cubbies (3-4 yr olds) and one nite, I just didn't really feel like going. I was tired, and honestly, just wanted to sit around the house and wallow in self pity. BUT, I went. And that nite, I met a girl who is the same age as me, she was also helping out and we just clicked. I felt like maybe, just maybe, she could be a friend. And you know what, she is. In fact, we are going to a superchick concert on friday nite. GOD IS SO AWESOME!!!


And, faithfulness and timing are not the only things I have learned. I have learned the true meaning of this verse:


"Trust in the Lord with ALL your heart..."


Let me just say, that this was not easy for me to learn. IT WAS HARD!!! I think for so long back home in NY, I leaned on my friends, my chaplains, my youth leaders to fix my problems. I talked to them about everything, and relyed on them to fix things. And you know what, while it usually made me feel better for a little while, and while it helped to talk it thru with people, I never ever learned to give things to God and to trust him with anything.


So, we moved, and I had so much on my heart. Worries, frustrations, concerns, praises and you know what, I didn't have anyone to talk to. EXCEPT GOD!! And as a result, I learned what it means to trust him. THAT ALONE HAS FREED ME. It freed me. By giving everything over to God, I was able to keep pressing forward, and be free from all the "issues" that were weighing me down. And as a result, I was able to rest. The last blog was about needing that rest. By trusting the Lord with all my heart, I found rest. He has been my everything this move.


Again, most of you know that my favorite singer ever is Bethany Dillon. Check out these lyrics:


When the day is done
And there's no one else around
While I'm lying here in bed
You're in my heart, You're in my head
You're all I need, You're all I need

There are a million voices
Calling out my name
But You're the One I want to hear
So make the others disappear
You're all I need, You're all I need

You are all I need when I'm surrounded
You are all I need if I'm by myself
You fill me when I'm empty
There is nothing else
You're all I need

When the morning comes
And Your mercy is renewed
There's a fire in my bones
I'm not afraid to go alone
You're all I need You're all I need

The sun on my face
I hear You whisper loud
You're still the God that opens seas
Every flower, even me
You're all I need You're all I need

I'm drawn to everything that You do
Nothing compares with You


OF course, I can always share how I feel with someone elses song, but, these words that she wrote are true and I finally understand. This time of transition, I haven't had anyone. He truly has been all I need.


Well, this has gotten long, and as usual, probably quite scattered. But, it feels good to be writing on here again. I haven't felt like writing in a while. Just not sure how to put all this stuff into words, but, I thought I'd give it a shot tonite.


Thanks guys for all the prayers...i love you guys!!!