a lovely, rainy day...

today has been a very good day! which makes me quite happy!

it has been rainy and cloudy and chilly...finally starting to feel a bit like fall! the air is getting crisper each day! :)

so, quick story.

my HS has 2 campuses, one for freshman, and then a main campus (grades 10-12). My last hour class happens to be at the freshman campus which requires me to ride a loud, noisy, crowded bus about 3/4 thru my day. now, anyone who knows me, knows that i LOVE riding the bus. I think all my years of being a "walker" to school has given me this great love for school buses, who really knows. anyways...

altho i do enjoy riding the bus, riding it in the middle of the day, to a different campus...well, that i could do without. it just isn't that fun. but today, i didn't have to ride it. my lovely friend gave me a ride!! you see, i still don't have my lisence, so i can't drive myself. :( o well. anyways, i was very thankful for not only the ride, but the extra few minutes i could spend talking with such a fun girl! *smile*

another thing that made this day particularly nice was the rain. i do love rainy days! :) i love the sound and smell of the raindrops gently hitting the roof of my house...and i love that after lots of rain, everything looks so fresh and new and green!

speaking of rain...i am FINALLY getting a pair of puddle splashers! *grin* I have wanted some rain boots for quite some time and have finally found a pair at...TARGET! :) They are very cute! Check them out...

So, there they are! I can't wait to put them on and take a walk in the rain and jump in a few puddles! :)

Oh, by the way...i JUST figured out how to post pictures...I know i have had the blog for a few YEARS but I finally learned how to put a picture on! YAY! :)

This has been quite an exciting day! *laugh*

well, homework is calling my name very loudly. i should get going. hope your day has been just as fantastic as mine has been! blessings...

hello! hello! hello!

Well, the school year is well underway and I am...not quite sure how I am liking it...


I am enjoying my classes, loving the fact that I'm a senior, but am SO BUSY I don't really know what to do! YIKES!


At the beginning of this year, I promised myself that I wouldn't say yes to too many things. I promised myself that I would take it easy and enjoy my last year of HS. I promised myself that if I did get too busy, I would cut out some things and better prioritize my time.


Let's just say, I'm not doing a very good job. Between school work, babysitting, AWANA leading, Children's Church on Sunday afternoons, Youth Group on Sunday nights, and sleeping...things have gotten pretty hectic.


I don't like it.


While I have always preferred busyness to boredom, the busyness I am experiencing right now, just isn't fun. I can't seem to find the balance. My life right now feels scattered and cluttered and disorganized. My brain is constantly trying to keep track of everything and it just can't. I just can't seem to find my "groove," if you will.


I guess I sort of expected to ease into this year, slowly start things, and therefore, finding my groove and the balance wouldn't be too difficult. instead, everything started at once. I felt like life was flying at me at 100 miles an hour and I had to try and catch up...I still feel that way. I feel behind, even though I've barely started.


And the hard part is, I don't know what I can give up to try and make this year a little less crazy.


And the hard part is, I don't WANT to give anything up in order to make this year a little less crazy.


when I keep myself busy, it makes me feel really good about myself. Sort of like, "look how much I can handle and still keep a smile on my face!" Only, the smile hasn't really been there. And instead of feeling really good, I feel really crummy. The fact that I can't balance everything makes me feel...bad. Sort of like one big failure...I get caught up thinking that i should be able to balance all of these things. and the truth is-I can't. I can't keep track of it all. I can't balance it all. And you know what, I think I need to stop trying.


Maybe I shouldn't be trying so hard to fit a 5 course meal onto a lunch plate, instead of one that's dinner size. (sorry, I'm a bit hungry right now!) And maybe I shoudn't be the one that's doing the balancing.


I think I found the issue. I have been trying to make it all work. I have been trying to balance everything. And I shouldn't be. I should just let God to the balancing, and the organizing...maybe let HIM take over. Because, in all honesty, one of the first things to go when I get stressed out, is my quiet time.


I had been trying to wake up in the morning, read a few verses, and really meditate on them, not only in the morning, but throughout the day. Well, when I realized how tired I had become, I decided that sleep was more important then spending time with the Lord. But, I think that that time with Him was keeping me sane. And giving it up, only made me, actually IS MAKING ME more stressed out.


I think it's time that I start going to bed 15 or 20 minutes earlier, so that I can wake up earlier and spend the first minutes of my day with the one who graciously GAVE me the day. I think that starting my day off right will in turn make the entire day go a bit more smoothly. In fact, I know it will. And maybe I should just stop worrying about everything. I worry so much about getting things done, finding time for things etc. But, worrying is a big, fat WASTE OF TIME!


I think that my goal for this week, and the rest of this school year, will be to eliminate worrying, and start my day off right. I'll let you know how it goes...


:)