Hey guys!
My it has been a while since i last wrote!
Well, things out here are ok. I am just tired...in every sense of the word. Tired of feeling lonely, tired of awkward times with people i don't know very well, tired due to lack of relaxing time, tired of just dealing with things i don't want to deal with anymore, tired of living phone call to phone call, email to email from friends. When will this place feel like home? who know's.
While things sometimes seem yucky, God seems to give me something each week to make me smile. This week, it was the opportunity to get to know one of our youth group leaders a bit better. She is an awesome girl and has been so kind to me since moving. I can only hope that the relationship will grow into a great friendship!
Also, at the beginning of the week (sunday) I was feeling really good!! Church was awesome, youth group praise and worship was amazing and I was feeling really close to God. That was an awesome feeling. God has just been so good to me in this whole time of transition.
Funny, I was reading Beth Moore's blog and she was talking about how important it is that we give God the glory for all that he doesn in our lives. It made me wonder if I have been giving him the glory for what he has done just this week? Or this month? or year? Maybe if I start doing that, I will notice all he has done so much more!? he has done so much!!
This was a shorter blog tonite...like I said, I'm tired.
I hope you all are doing well! love you guys!!
13 March 2008
15 December 2007
Just HAVE to share something kind of funny!!!
This will be short...promise.
Anyways, I have to write a research paper for my english class...an argument paper. I am writing mine on the importance of sleep and the effect lack of sleep has on teens. Really interesting, by the way.
Here's the funny part. Tonite, at 12AM, I began writing it. And now, at 12:41 I am gonna stop. But, I just thought it was funny that I was writing my paper on the importance of sleep at midnite.
Just wanted to share that...GOOD NITE!!
Anyways, I have to write a research paper for my english class...an argument paper. I am writing mine on the importance of sleep and the effect lack of sleep has on teens. Really interesting, by the way.
Here's the funny part. Tonite, at 12AM, I began writing it. And now, at 12:41 I am gonna stop. But, I just thought it was funny that I was writing my paper on the importance of sleep at midnite.
Just wanted to share that...GOOD NITE!!
10 November 2007
Been so long!!!
Boy oh boy it has been a long time since I wrote last...
Well, school is well under way, we finish with our 1st trimester in a week, so, i am officially 1/3 done with junior year! YAY! And with that, I have begun my college search. Not too much, but, I just don't want to put it off and be stressed out later.
Anyways, things here in MI have gotten easier...still not a huge fan, but, I am learning to like it. I have gotten invloved with Young Life and Campaigners out here and met a few people. While I try to keep an open mind, not too many people could ever measure up to the incredible friends I have back in NY. But, like, I said, I am trying to keep an open mind.
This move has been a real stretching time for me. I have been streched socially, metnally, emotionally and spiritually. And if growing in my faith and love of Jesus was the only reason I moved, then I am thankful for the move. But, more and more, I am seeing why God brought us here. Plainly put, our work in NY was done. and, while I didnt want it to be done, it was and let me tell you, GOd's timing is better than my own. And it was time for us to move on to a new mission feild.
Besides learning that God's timing is the best, I have also learned so much about his faithfulness. Even those days where I didn't think I could make it thru the nite, God was there. ANd sometimes, when I thought a friend would never come my way...someone would shoot me a smile in the hall or at Cubbies, of all places.
Most of you know that i am practically addicted to little kids. i just love them. So, when we moved here, I immediately wanted to get involved with AWANA helping with Cubbies (3-4 yr olds) and one nite, I just didn't really feel like going. I was tired, and honestly, just wanted to sit around the house and wallow in self pity. BUT, I went. And that nite, I met a girl who is the same age as me, she was also helping out and we just clicked. I felt like maybe, just maybe, she could be a friend. And you know what, she is. In fact, we are going to a superchick concert on friday nite. GOD IS SO AWESOME!!!
And, faithfulness and timing are not the only things I have learned. I have learned the true meaning of this verse:
"Trust in the Lord with ALL your heart..."
Let me just say, that this was not easy for me to learn. IT WAS HARD!!! I think for so long back home in NY, I leaned on my friends, my chaplains, my youth leaders to fix my problems. I talked to them about everything, and relyed on them to fix things. And you know what, while it usually made me feel better for a little while, and while it helped to talk it thru with people, I never ever learned to give things to God and to trust him with anything.
So, we moved, and I had so much on my heart. Worries, frustrations, concerns, praises and you know what, I didn't have anyone to talk to. EXCEPT GOD!! And as a result, I learned what it means to trust him. THAT ALONE HAS FREED ME. It freed me. By giving everything over to God, I was able to keep pressing forward, and be free from all the "issues" that were weighing me down. And as a result, I was able to rest. The last blog was about needing that rest. By trusting the Lord with all my heart, I found rest. He has been my everything this move.
Again, most of you know that my favorite singer ever is Bethany Dillon. Check out these lyrics:
When the day is done
And there's no one else around
While I'm lying here in bed
You're in my heart, You're in my head
You're all I need, You're all I need
There are a million voices
Calling out my name
But You're the One I want to hear
So make the others disappear
You're all I need, You're all I need
You are all I need when I'm surrounded
You are all I need if I'm by myself
You fill me when I'm empty
There is nothing else
You're all I need
When the morning comes
And Your mercy is renewed
There's a fire in my bones
I'm not afraid to go alone
You're all I need You're all I need
The sun on my face
I hear You whisper loud
You're still the God that opens seas
Every flower, even me
You're all I need You're all I need
I'm drawn to everything that You do
Nothing compares with You
OF course, I can always share how I feel with someone elses song, but, these words that she wrote are true and I finally understand. This time of transition, I haven't had anyone. He truly has been all I need.
Well, this has gotten long, and as usual, probably quite scattered. But, it feels good to be writing on here again. I haven't felt like writing in a while. Just not sure how to put all this stuff into words, but, I thought I'd give it a shot tonite.
Thanks guys for all the prayers...i love you guys!!!
Well, school is well under way, we finish with our 1st trimester in a week, so, i am officially 1/3 done with junior year! YAY! And with that, I have begun my college search. Not too much, but, I just don't want to put it off and be stressed out later.
Anyways, things here in MI have gotten easier...still not a huge fan, but, I am learning to like it. I have gotten invloved with Young Life and Campaigners out here and met a few people. While I try to keep an open mind, not too many people could ever measure up to the incredible friends I have back in NY. But, like, I said, I am trying to keep an open mind.
This move has been a real stretching time for me. I have been streched socially, metnally, emotionally and spiritually. And if growing in my faith and love of Jesus was the only reason I moved, then I am thankful for the move. But, more and more, I am seeing why God brought us here. Plainly put, our work in NY was done. and, while I didnt want it to be done, it was and let me tell you, GOd's timing is better than my own. And it was time for us to move on to a new mission feild.
Besides learning that God's timing is the best, I have also learned so much about his faithfulness. Even those days where I didn't think I could make it thru the nite, God was there. ANd sometimes, when I thought a friend would never come my way...someone would shoot me a smile in the hall or at Cubbies, of all places.
Most of you know that i am practically addicted to little kids. i just love them. So, when we moved here, I immediately wanted to get involved with AWANA helping with Cubbies (3-4 yr olds) and one nite, I just didn't really feel like going. I was tired, and honestly, just wanted to sit around the house and wallow in self pity. BUT, I went. And that nite, I met a girl who is the same age as me, she was also helping out and we just clicked. I felt like maybe, just maybe, she could be a friend. And you know what, she is. In fact, we are going to a superchick concert on friday nite. GOD IS SO AWESOME!!!
And, faithfulness and timing are not the only things I have learned. I have learned the true meaning of this verse:
"Trust in the Lord with ALL your heart..."
Let me just say, that this was not easy for me to learn. IT WAS HARD!!! I think for so long back home in NY, I leaned on my friends, my chaplains, my youth leaders to fix my problems. I talked to them about everything, and relyed on them to fix things. And you know what, while it usually made me feel better for a little while, and while it helped to talk it thru with people, I never ever learned to give things to God and to trust him with anything.
So, we moved, and I had so much on my heart. Worries, frustrations, concerns, praises and you know what, I didn't have anyone to talk to. EXCEPT GOD!! And as a result, I learned what it means to trust him. THAT ALONE HAS FREED ME. It freed me. By giving everything over to God, I was able to keep pressing forward, and be free from all the "issues" that were weighing me down. And as a result, I was able to rest. The last blog was about needing that rest. By trusting the Lord with all my heart, I found rest. He has been my everything this move.
Again, most of you know that my favorite singer ever is Bethany Dillon. Check out these lyrics:
When the day is done
And there's no one else around
While I'm lying here in bed
You're in my heart, You're in my head
You're all I need, You're all I need
There are a million voices
Calling out my name
But You're the One I want to hear
So make the others disappear
You're all I need, You're all I need
You are all I need when I'm surrounded
You are all I need if I'm by myself
You fill me when I'm empty
There is nothing else
You're all I need
When the morning comes
And Your mercy is renewed
There's a fire in my bones
I'm not afraid to go alone
You're all I need You're all I need
The sun on my face
I hear You whisper loud
You're still the God that opens seas
Every flower, even me
You're all I need You're all I need
I'm drawn to everything that You do
Nothing compares with You
OF course, I can always share how I feel with someone elses song, but, these words that she wrote are true and I finally understand. This time of transition, I haven't had anyone. He truly has been all I need.
Well, this has gotten long, and as usual, probably quite scattered. But, it feels good to be writing on here again. I haven't felt like writing in a while. Just not sure how to put all this stuff into words, but, I thought I'd give it a shot tonite.
Thanks guys for all the prayers...i love you guys!!!
08 September 2007
Rest
Hey guys-
I am learning a lesson right now. it is one that is very hard to learn, but, I need to learn it anyway.
It is rest.
Today, i had a major, missing west point meltdown. the army game was on TV and of course, i had to watch. seeing my home on the screen made me long to be back there. and I realized, what i loved about that place, was the hustle and bustle of life. the atmosphere. the fact that even when you are sitting still in your room, you can feel that all of post is crawling with busyness. here, i go to school and come home. there, i went to school, was at a chorus rehearsal untill the late bus left, did homework, ate, finished HW went to YL or campaigners, came home, showered, picked up, read, sleep, i was non stop. i miss that.
i need to be busy. but, i can't right now. and with the help of my mom, came to the conclusion, that god is teaching me a valuable lesson. and that is, sometimes, i can't be 100 miles a minute all the stinkin time. i need to take time to be still.
this summer, i have grown a lot in my faith. because i have had the time to be still, read, write, spend time with Jesus. and it has been great. I feel relaxed, stress free, happy etc. yet, while i am relaxed, all i can think about is how i want to be busy. i don't even know if that makes sense...but, in my mind, it does. :)
pray for me, friends. pray that i can learn to be still. to enjoy this time of quiet, before my i get out of control busy. pray that i can understand and accept the fact that, here, where we live now, is right where the Lord wants us to be...right now, i don't want to accept that. i want to jump on the next flight to NY and never come back. i want to be with my friends, smack in the center of the busyness i call west point...my home.
this summer has been incredibly bittersweet. i am getting thru it. slowly but surely. love you all! miss you all!! God is faithful, and right now, all i can do is be still and let him lead me...
I am learning a lesson right now. it is one that is very hard to learn, but, I need to learn it anyway.
It is rest.
Today, i had a major, missing west point meltdown. the army game was on TV and of course, i had to watch. seeing my home on the screen made me long to be back there. and I realized, what i loved about that place, was the hustle and bustle of life. the atmosphere. the fact that even when you are sitting still in your room, you can feel that all of post is crawling with busyness. here, i go to school and come home. there, i went to school, was at a chorus rehearsal untill the late bus left, did homework, ate, finished HW went to YL or campaigners, came home, showered, picked up, read, sleep, i was non stop. i miss that.
i need to be busy. but, i can't right now. and with the help of my mom, came to the conclusion, that god is teaching me a valuable lesson. and that is, sometimes, i can't be 100 miles a minute all the stinkin time. i need to take time to be still.
this summer, i have grown a lot in my faith. because i have had the time to be still, read, write, spend time with Jesus. and it has been great. I feel relaxed, stress free, happy etc. yet, while i am relaxed, all i can think about is how i want to be busy. i don't even know if that makes sense...but, in my mind, it does. :)
pray for me, friends. pray that i can learn to be still. to enjoy this time of quiet, before my i get out of control busy. pray that i can understand and accept the fact that, here, where we live now, is right where the Lord wants us to be...right now, i don't want to accept that. i want to jump on the next flight to NY and never come back. i want to be with my friends, smack in the center of the busyness i call west point...my home.
this summer has been incredibly bittersweet. i am getting thru it. slowly but surely. love you all! miss you all!! God is faithful, and right now, all i can do is be still and let him lead me...
07 September 2007
My first week of school...
Well, one week down, a zillion to go!
My first week at HHS was a success!! I haven't had to sit at lunch by myself at all, and only gotten lost once or twice!! HOORAY!!!
I love my classes but, as of right now, i am really loving my personal living class...the teacher is AWESOME!! Her name is mrs. b-something. I can't spell it for anything.
Our chorus, or as it is called out here, choir (weird, i know!) is way different then NY. I really miss oneill chorus, but, at least i can still sing here! that is really great for me!
I have met a few people, which has been nice to have a few familiar faces...no really good friends yet, but, i am assuming that will come in time, you know.
well, i know this was short, and probably a snoozer, i just don't feel like typing all about school. if you all want to know, call or something. plus, i am in the basement, and my fingers are just too cold to type. that's all...love-
My first week at HHS was a success!! I haven't had to sit at lunch by myself at all, and only gotten lost once or twice!! HOORAY!!!
I love my classes but, as of right now, i am really loving my personal living class...the teacher is AWESOME!! Her name is mrs. b-something. I can't spell it for anything.
Our chorus, or as it is called out here, choir (weird, i know!) is way different then NY. I really miss oneill chorus, but, at least i can still sing here! that is really great for me!
I have met a few people, which has been nice to have a few familiar faces...no really good friends yet, but, i am assuming that will come in time, you know.
well, i know this was short, and probably a snoozer, i just don't feel like typing all about school. if you all want to know, call or something. plus, i am in the basement, and my fingers are just too cold to type. that's all...love-
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